Tuesday, June 2, 2009

All: wholly, entirely, completely.

Hii! I just got back from swimming and I'm soaking wet :) Oh, and I just ate some chips too. While I was munching, I began reflecting on this past weekend, and I decided to share my thoughts with whoever cares to read them :) On Sunday, I attended a new church for the second week in a row now. This church is vastly different from the church I am coming from, but enjoyable nevertheless! During worship on Sunday, the band played a song called "Jesus paid it all". The lyrics go like this...

I hear the Savior say,
Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all

Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow

And now complete in Him,
My robe, His righteousness,
Close sheltered ’neath His side,
I am divinely blest

Lord, now indeed I find
Thy pow’r, and Thine alone,
Can change the leper’s spots
And melt the heart of stone

And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
I’ll lay my trophies down,
All down at Jesus’ feet

I love this song. Really, seriously, love this song. During worship on Sunday, I was singing this song and felt the Spirit of God asking me "Child of weakness, do you find in me thine all and all?" Guilty, I stood before Him quiet and still. Reflecting on my life, it occurred to me that I haven't been finding my all in all in Him.

Lately, I've been finding *most* of my life -my identity, my purpose- in Him, but when it came to little things like my future, the desires of my heart, my dreams and aspirations, I was still placing part of me in those uncertain things. This realization grieved me. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that, in recent life, Jesus hasn't been my last thought before I fall into slumber, He hasn't been my first thought when I roll out of bed, and he's only occupied a small portion of my thoughts in between. How tragic is that?

Jesus paid it all, for me. I am now complete in Him, and I can proudly wear His righteousness. My status as righteous in God's eyes is not because of my own merits, but because of Jesus'. He came and illustrated His love for me, through the sacrifice of His life, and in return I'm giving Him my leftovers?! I'm serving leftovers to a holy God. What is wrong with me? After surrendering all other distractions in my life during worship on Sunday, God grabbed a hold of my heart yet again and spoke to me saying "Child, again your eyes are fixed on me. My desire is to be your all in all." And since then, He has been. I am not only content, but satisfied with allowing Him to be my everything. At the end of the day, everything around me can burn and fade to dust, and with this, lose it's value, but I want my life -- my sum total -- to be Jesus. May He not only be my portion but my everything. May all that I am, amount to Him.

May you come to relinquish control of the things in your life that you hold dear. May God not be another item, that is high on your "love list" (next to your family, or work, or tacos) but may He have center stage in your heart and may everything else in your life lose its value compared to Him. May He complete you, and may your eyes, and your heart be wholly focused on Him. All to Him I owe <3 Kel


  1. this was A-mazing kelly
    thank you for sharing your heart.. especially since the Holy Spirit placd it there!

  2. You're killing me Smalls (yes, you may have just earned a new nickname..)! I love it. I hope that everyone and their Mom gets this too. It's huge in our walk with God! He wants us to press in and seek Him with our whole heart. Thanks for posting this, no need to use MLA or APA or anything.. ;)

  3. i like this and the picture too :)